Hip Hip Hooray! Booyah! Yay! Or watever blithe shoutout that may expressed, I’d finally sailed through the 2 years of medical trainee years in Taiping Hospital. =)For these 2 years, I don feel a niche of being old at all, as time takes its toll again being so lightning fast!
I am really proud of myself to be able to endure through these 2 years of hardship in GH Taiping. Blessing in disguise I must say; disguise to be posted here being one of the most malignant place for housemen training and blessing for the confidence which i built along the way. Allow me to congratulates all my fellow comrades who we got nailed, blended, pounded and some even got ‘killed’, together throughout these years..WELL DONE GUYS! At times, when i ponder back my memory lane in this hospital, and wondered how on earth i could have made it through..really. No joke.
And so what’s next? MO, of course.
When everyone is trying to get back Taiping Hospital for MOship, I am one helluva’ luckie fella to be able to stay here, instead of being thrown away to smaller district area. Lucky…well, that’s most of the ppl said to me. Of course I felt so much grateful initially, for the lady luck siding me to retain the place i wanna be. I wanted here badly, honestly just for one and only reason. To be in Surgery.
“Life’s like a box of chocolate and you never know wat u gonna get”..indeed mesmerizing. After one whole twist of drama going up there with the Pengarah..i ended up in Paediatric, least of all expectation. Yes, surprisingly Paediatric. A posting in which i dragged myself every morning dreadfully, and cursing inside me for every single thing that stumbled upon me during my days as a HO. And now being MO here.My goodness gracious..It must be karma i guess. Karma for pinching all the babies’ and toddlers’ chubbie cheek. eeeeee…
3 weeks ady, being an MO. A paeds MO, and completed 2 active calls. I am still not enjoying it yet. Not studying anything, but strumming my guitar at home.. it’s feeling something like ‘jiwang’…definitely not progressing. Making myself dumberer during ward rounds, and less participating. Seeking for divine intervention for Motivation..and yet still motivationless, waiting for the days when i am told to leave to Surgery. My flare of aggressiveness has drowned. Feeling of remorse, self pity…?Can someone please tell me what can i do?I know I need to take this opportunity to learn and gain as much as i can now but somehow still, something’s amiss. It’s the fire, yes..the spark of fire to glow again in me for me to go on. Sometimes, i feel if I’m the one to blame for being resorting myself to Surgery only, so fast. sigh.
Paeds department is afterall not a bad posting as i’ve mentioned. Its all from me, dictating and polluting the scenario. Actually, paeds in Taiping is indeed a very good place to hang around for HO and MO. Currently, all the bosses, namely the specialist are all very supportive to me, willing to listen, and helps out in watever way they can. My fellow colleagues are all supportive only thing is that errr….I’m the only guy there. Well, well.. I mus say, guys and gals do work differently, a vast one actually. Patience is virtue anyway ;p
If only I am interested to be paediatrician, i will definitely stick here till old. Its that good u know. haha ;D
For now, I rest my case to HIM, the creator i believe. Meanwhile, trying hard to look for a miss MOTIVATION for me to keep going in this posting. I’ll definitely be back, dear Surgery..hopefully.