My last post was way damn long ago, i know it. Who cares..
Again, i must say Time is really freaking me out man. Can’t imagine that, ppl are selling mooncakes ady, and then Raya is jus falling the coming week! Oh no… And nex few glimpses, come the carols of Xmas songs around, which i am really looking forward this Xmas. I love Xmas, i mus say.
This whole year, well not whole, but 3/4 of the year had kept me busy and focused on my job nothing else.. I realised as things progressed, I aged, and my perception of certain things altered. I always keep my self-intepretation as simple, as far as a humanoid can be so that i will not deviate away from my resolutions.
Recently, I met with few inexplicable dilemmas..u know those kinda life-changing decisions. Yeah, i think i am exaggerating, but somehow these dillemmas reminds me of the poem ‘the road not taken’ by robert frost, which came out for my SPM trial exams. haha.
2 and more months to go,I will be MO, if only i cruised smoothly my current posting, paeds. Touch-wood, hopefully it gonna be a smooth sailing one. While I am interested in surgery, a rocky, thorny, sticky but a rewarding profession i would say..something is just there to halt it. Well, I keep telling myself ” this is life mah..if ppl say sky’s the limit, then y is there footprints on the moon?”…comforting rite? hopefully it is. Adding to that, i always rmr wat my Dato K, a prominent megasurgeon said ‘I go all the way out everything for surgery, nothing can stop me’ a very inspiring surgeon to me..
My Perak JKN had came out with the new rules for all HOs to be send out to district, i dunno why, but somehow JKN ppl tot that Taiping is a megapolitan city with subspecialty in which Taiping is not a district, funnie rite? Here’s the catch, Ipoh HOs will all be send out going to Taiping, Teluk Intan, Manjung(places with specialist) whichever the individuals wanted mostly i would say. But i see taiping are all being sent out to even smaller town like tapah, gerik, parit buntar.. which i don see the point at all. Anyway, forget bout that..I called up the JKN fellas that day, and i was told clearly that there’s no way that I can stay in Taiping, and keep telling me the 2 cents of opinion of going districts esp Parit Buntar, and Gerik only. I think if we put that person in charge as a 1Msia slogan spokeperson, prolly 1Msia would be more successful than today. But at the end of the conversation, I was actually given a choice to stay Taiping but Anesthesia for at least 2 years(which i think is adjustable)
Its not that i love to stay in Taiping loads for the fact that i got no one here, ultimately i would wanna to go to a other centre to learn more since my youth still allows me to do so. But Taiping, i think will be a good training for me especially in surgery. Surgery is the reason i would wanna stay here, hopefully I am damn rite. So now, i am really in dilemma whether to stay in Anesthesia, go district or perhaps applying back to KL/ Penang to start all over again. sigh sigh….“I shall telling this with a sigh, Somewhere ages and ages hence, Two roads diverge in a wood, And i took the one less travelled by, And that had made all the difference.”