Something is wrong..

I got my result today for my surgery posting. I managed to pass both papers fairly. No big fuss over the results tat was out for my batch, everyone seems pleased wit their respective result. But not me.

This time, i’m very disappointed. Suddenly, everything to me just doesn’t work. Everything tat i’ve sacrificed for. working hard and hoping for a better change but always…always to no prevail,just never once. I just don understand, this isn’t the first time tat i’ve tried to change. Each time i try to work on it by analyzing the core culprit to start wit, but still i never got to anywhere..just never!  This melancholy has always lingers around in me, tat keep me frustrated of myself always.  Am i just tat useless???or izzit such existence of  blardyfool destiny saying tat my destiny towards my ambition is full of torns, is real?

The feeling at such are really sucky…sucks to the max. Especially when all ur hardwork, n ur intention doesn’t tally wit ur expectation and aim. I never put my expectation high at all, as i’m aware of my ability.  I just hate it man…i keep asking myself, till when i can go till when the day came to show me something;s change for the better, and at least to show tat i’m on the right track rather than being stagnant always, or fade down the line.. sigh…

Am just tat useless u see….*spit*

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About yenwee

There's nothing much i can bout myself, coz i think i've known myself much to the depth that i love myself more than anyone. hehe. Feel free to log into my previous blog which can be linked from here at 'My previous one' under He/She Blogs Too. In addition to those bla bla bla bout myself, i think now i've grown more ripe by age. World today seems to be more of making decision of either good or not that good. I cud felt that i'm nearer to what i want to achieve. Its jus bout few steps away from now before i reached that point..
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6 Responses to Something is wrong..

  1. Kok Foong says:

    Nope, Yen Wee. You are not. I forbid you from saying that.

    To me, you are good enough. Life has its ups and downs. I know you for so long and i can tell you that there are many things that you are really fantastic in.

    have faith in you. SMILE 🙂

  2. Ching Mun says:

    Man you’re so useful! Don’t judge yourself just by results. I always disagree with defining good students just by what they have achieved in exams. I believe your effort brings you improvement each day, to be a more competent person.

    Cheer up! 🙂

  3. tps says:

    Hey Friend, Just try your best and you will have no regrets. =)

    Take care

  4. CK says:

    Don’t say liddat… My gp is the worst of all, no people ever get an A in SAQ so far in Sem 9. The graph skewed to the right with majority failling.. myself too having bad luck with crappy results. U can do better! Psych yourself a bit!

  5. Rachel says:

    hey..i know what u feel and experienced exactly the same!! haha…tat’s why in these last 3 months of my MS (i guess u know wat it means..haha!!!) , try to work hard also though i know i m not gonna make any big achievement….aim for passing..aim for 50 marks…it’s still a big aim in my life! i feel, u r good enough..cos, u have the interest, u have the passion..high marks not only needs hardwork but needs luck as well! all the best!

  6. yenwee says:

    Kok Foong: Thanks for the comfort Ah foong go…
    Ching Mun: Thanks for ur comfort too. I will try my best to satisfy my aim. I will..Thanks
    tps: okay.. 😉
    CK : i’ll learn to psych myself more..not in the way towards the other pole…
    Rachel : Thanks for sharing ..All the best to u too!!!Thanks for stopping by my blog..

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