I got my result today for my surgery posting. I managed to pass both papers fairly. No big fuss over the results tat was out for my batch, everyone seems pleased wit their respective result. But not me.
This time, i’m very disappointed. Suddenly, everything to me just doesn’t work. Everything tat i’ve sacrificed for. working hard and hoping for a better change but always…always to no prevail,just never once. I just don understand, this isn’t the first time tat i’ve tried to change. Each time i try to work on it by analyzing the core culprit to start wit, but still i never got to anywhere..just never! This melancholy has always lingers around in me, tat keep me frustrated of myself always. Am i just tat useless???or izzit such existence of blardyfool destiny saying tat my destiny towards my ambition is full of torns, is real?
The feeling at such are really sucky…sucks to the max. Especially when all ur hardwork, n ur intention doesn’t tally wit ur expectation and aim. I never put my expectation high at all, as i’m aware of my ability. I just hate it man…i keep asking myself, till when i can go till when the day came to show me something;s change for the better, and at least to show tat i’m on the right track rather than being stagnant always, or fade down the line.. sigh…
Am just tat useless u see….*spit*