It stroke me jus like an avelanche. Not even wit series of earth crust’s vibration prior to that. I surrender myself to the overwhelming complex entity which interrelates dynamic chemistry of hers. I wonder, wonder n wonder if myself had actually been carried away wit it for sometime without realising it in my grey matter. It is powerful. For awhile, a long while in fact,I ponder the little trigger in my brain to find the logic behind it, but to no avail. I’m assured its a genuine chemistry.
Its been quite sometime since then, i had such a genuine feeling. Been several times, i tried to begin my days trying to tell myself if those were jus lies lying beneath me, tat was blinding n fooling myself for i’m not worth for it. Am not worth for it.. Perhaps, the past had really left me a deep wound fibrosed, for my confidence to pick up. I knoe confidence is important, anyway.
I fail to do so, as each day i woke up jus to realise everything was jus as it is. It was in fact, real truth tat’s been there for sometime. I knoe i got nothing to lose for being achieving wat is essential for me in my life. N i definitely knoe tat its really really important. I took up the challenge, n go for it to bear all the responsibility on my shoulder alone. I’ve no regret, as ppl say there’s no turning back in life.
I’m beyond elated for wat had happened so far. For tat, i laboured my trust in it, hoping for the best to turn out. Well, of course its not as easy as jus hoping…
Everything is just part n parcel of growing process in life ba.. =)