Exam coming…
I woke up this morning, fresh n recharged. It was such a rejuvenation after 3 weeks of sleepless night, and restless days including the weekend. Though it seems that my gynae posting bringing all the hubbub and ado to an end finally, but in the process along these 3 weeks, surprisingly i don feel so.
I must admit, along these 3 weeks of posting, apart from those workloads and superb high expectations from our fellow lecturers i learnt lots. I knoe i didn end this time with jus a mere Gynae knowledge, but more than tat is how to prepare myself as a future doc in time coming. One of the most remarkable lecturer whom i label as Teacher instead of lecturer, was one of the most prominent figure in O&G field during his time, n well of course now as well. I retrieve lots not only the knowledge, but after trying hard to extract his msg behind every of his daily quote ‘ go to ward, spend more time in ward..u all ah, like boyscout, like Form 3 kids’ i know wat he meant. More than how he expected us to be more practical clinician, he is trying to blend us to be a better dedicated doctor. At his age, i think the only aim that stil left in him is his will to change, to change the new generation in which his past had much reflected on the current issues and mistakes. It was a humungous effort, but his initiation sparks a good start.
Trying to apply it myself not as an outstanding student, i know wat it takes to accomplish his expectation in me. There’s no way denying tat i’m not being pressured of the current situation, not to mention those bunch of outstanding students tat i’m wit now. Of course i take this as an opportunity to improve myself to be more competent in my class..well i guess its time for me to be again competent in my studies since before i entered medical schol.
Next week’s my exam. Exam? I think i shud put it is as an Evaluation rather than exam. Okay, time bac to my studies. In the end of medical schol, exam is stil everything for wat it takes to become a doctor…
It stroke me jus like an avelanche. Not even wit series of earth crust’s vibration prior to that. I surrender myself to the overwhelming complex entity which interrelates dynamic chemistry of hers. I wonder, wonder n wonder if myself had actually been carried away wit it for sometime without realising it in my grey matter. It is powerful. For awhile, a long while in fact,I ponder the little trigger in my brain to find the logic behind it, but to no avail. I’m assured its a genuine chemistry.
Its been quite sometime since then, i had such a genuine feeling. Been several times, i tried to begin my days trying to tell myself if those were jus lies lying beneath me, tat was blinding n fooling myself for i’m not worth for it. Am not worth for it.. Perhaps, the past had really left me a deep wound fibrosed, for my confidence to pick up. I knoe confidence is important, anyway.
I fail to do so, as each day i woke up jus to realise everything was jus as it is. It was in fact, real truth tat’s been there for sometime. I knoe i got nothing to lose for being achieving wat is essential for me in my life. N i definitely knoe tat its really really important. I took up the challenge, n go for it to bear all the responsibility on my shoulder alone. I’ve no regret, as ppl say there’s no turning back in life.
I’m beyond elated for wat had happened so far. For tat, i laboured my trust in it, hoping for the best to turn out. Well, of course its not as easy as jus hoping…
Everything is just part n parcel of growing process in life ba.. =)
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Short Update
Its been one suffocating first week of semester 9. Aih, though been reminding myself to expect the best and prepare for the worst in this semester but it seems tat everything appear to be at worst state with no room for any expectation from myself. This whole week been quite lost with a whole new sllyabus which is GYnaecology, making me go aghast with the amount of coverage tat is expected from us in this posting, not to mention Obstetric somemore. Uh, rarely i was startled at this stage wit fumes of stress beginning of new posting. Perhaps, i’m being intimidated of wat’s been said around tat this semester is gonna be a helluva time, tat i’m shoudering unnecessary pressure on myself la. Unnecessary?..well thinking twice, perhaps bits of stress wil do magic for bonelazy person of me.
Uh well, away from the those puffs of brisky husstle, am now bac to Penang. Penang?…yea, it seems tat i’ve jus boasted of how occupied am i this week in studies, n yet stil manage to bac to Penang. Adding to tat, am now actually blogging while sipping my cinnamon blended coffee in Coffee Bean from Gurney PLaza XD. hehe. Well, story is long of how i managed to end up here in Penang, but i thinking bac, i left no regret to come bac here, when food here is ecstaticly heaven to satisfy my tummy. God knows, how much i missed the food here, n wondered if Sban wud ever be like tat. More than tat, my main aim to here is to visit my current ill grandmother. N plus to witness my close cousin’s ceremony tying his knot..finally. lol..
So, i’ll be bac again to Sban to face my Gynae tmr..Aih…ANyway, i better got bac to my books which i brought along to Coffee Bean. Rajin rite, me..Yea, its hard to say i’m lazy nowadays XD.
Portions for 2 gourmet ghoul…Slluurrp it clean n smooth in a blink..Don play play
Typical places in Penang so called heaven center…
Asam laksa with fried po piah..wat a fusion…where else can i find it?
Paints my whole trip worthwhile at least. Say cheese…
