Friday Nite oUT
I had FUN yesterday nite. Am not those type who loves the hype of nite life, but for the sake of so-called ‘exposure’ , off i went to KL City to venture the vivacity. We wen to this pub at Jalan Tung-Shin, called FrangiPani, owned by an Italian, if i’m not mistaken. Well, for those who are aware of the ‘unique’ market of its customers in this pub, nothing to be hoo-hah at k.Shhh…
I was really enjoying myself there, exuberated by the difference of culture tat i experienced before this. Was indeed really thrilled by the ‘exposure’ tat i had. Being a first timer in such place, i was told jus to be myself, and it works well enough for me to acclimatise to it. Quite a handful came introducing themselves to me, which makes me really blushingly kembang u knoe. In fact, i noticed i had few gazes by ppl there. Am not being perasan here, but it was really obvious lar. Never in my life, i felt being so warmly accepted. I had self-confidence spurth there wei. hehe.
Overall, i had a great time there. Manage to forge new friendship there, which mostly had my false identity. My nose wud had touched the ceiling if i am Pinochio the whole last nite. Felt bit of guilty, but considering tat a self-protection mechanism, i don mind bluffing bits n parts there. Haha. Asking if me to go there again..i don mind XD
A sumptous South-East-Asia cuisine before the zouk out.
Pass for entry
Part of the exuberance atmoshpere inside.
It feels good
It was another irk day which starts since morning til nite, near to midnite in fact in A&E. Packed wit procedures, endless admissions and classes to attend. By the time the sun sets, my brain usually wud be asking for more glucose which earlier been burned up for those purposes. Oftenly, it left me fatigue and decrease in level of consciousness which wud be only be compensated by - REST, SLEEP wud be a better option. Today was something quite gratifying i wud say .
This 40 yrs old Indon was brought in by his pals, found him unconscious wit his mouth choked with bubbles. Seems to be a suicidal case according to his pals’ stories. I secured his circulation, and tried to access his consciousness, well he is barely conscious. Everything seems fine from the cardiac monitor, n well my boss was bit of lepak-ed. I was bit of relaxed too while doing those procedures on him. Nothing took us off-gut since then, n his condition was overall stable. He regained his consciousness within half an hour later, and stared at me when i was away busy wit something else, but stil an eye distant lar.
I approached him then, bad me..wit the intention to knoe how he poisoned himself. Coz it really stirred my curiousity of BYGONE poisoning, Yes, its BYGONE- the cockroach spray. I was lame enuf at tat point of time to think, tat he mus be thinking tat himself as a giant cockroach which eventually causing me to chuckle in front of him before the conversation began. I was quite thrilled, when he was the one of kicked start the converstaion. “Young man, thanks. U r a good man and doctor”.. Uh, I was immediately trapped, engulfed wit tonnes of guilt. I was paused coz i wasn expecting it from him at all. Only then, i revelead my identity to him.
He was telling me his feeling when everything was grey in his world and i am the first and only person he saw from his eyes clearly when he was stil semi-conscious, trying to save his life..but of course there’s few others la,i’m not the hero in anyway, ka-le-fe me. It was a total different kinda of eye-stare from a person, tat i anyhow cudn’t describe. Its was jus my pure human instinct to derive such a chemical output. I am sure i was not being perasan la. All my tension jus slipped away from my shoulder and i was on cloud nine. It was so surreal, touching my inner sense of emotion, jus dunno why. I felt really being APPRECIATED. Uh..
We ended up both chatting and sharing till the psychiatrist arrived. And i was welcomed by him when he shared his private stories wit the psychiatrist. I got my answer there, anyway. hehe.
I am not sure if ageing been one of the causative agents, but this small occasion did really sparked my memories especially during my rebellious period. It finally make some sense to me when ppl are always saying tat even a smallest act of gratitude wud have made the difference.. Was chuckling all the way home in my car, while trying to dub the songs from the radio where possible. Was sometime ago since i felt good, really good~ =)
The lone maverick
Was reading this Sunday Times when this article caught my attention. Well, am not a political freak but, world of politics often gives lotsa of enthusiasm. Keep the story short, i keep my admiration in this guy, not over his idealism in politics realm, but his attitude n determination over his own principle. He is one of the Msia’s best-known activisit for human rights and political reform, yet not many ppl had know bout him including me. Tian Chua is his name, currently sitting as PKR’s information chief and is the newly elected MP for Batu. In the eyes of authorities, he is a law-breaker, and was duly arrested countless times, bashed about and even imprisoned. But today, the recent election had proved that his vision and his idealism was being shared by the rakyat when he is elected as MP for Batu with 9+++ majority.
At a glance in the pic, well he looked like the average-Joe reed-thin and boyish looking, mild mannered and soft spoken. Graduated from Australia,University New South Wales in Philosophy where he was overly exposed to peace movements, and human rights, environmental issues and human rights around the world. He was then become an active student leader(SRC la..student representatives council) There he protested against the imposition of university fees on foreign student, which eventually brings him to his first arrest in Sydney. He was there looked upon by East-Timor to help prepapre newsletter. 2 years later he left for Hong Kong, as a researcher on regional labour issues, and then received a scholarship in Master Degree pursueing Employment and Labour Studies in Netherlands. And after he studies, this guy actually came bac tanahair via the land route which took him 3 months. He enjoyed it and described it as the most enjoyable n freest time in his youth.
Bac to Msia then, then the age of his renaissance started. There’s when he started his politics. Prior to tat, he was immediately caught up by the East-Timor movement, in year 1996, before 1997 when Msia’s financial crisis started. It takes him 2 years to get well rooted to the problems in Msia’s politics, thinking of a change before he finally joined PKR in 1999 when it was stil headed by Anwar’s wife, Dr.Wan Azizah Wan Ismail. Along the way, he was actively involved in the opposition movements which by one of the famous pics was when he defied a water cannon truck, which described by ppl as being ‘real nutter’ and ‘drama queen’. but to him, stil he is following the peaceful protest and non-confrontational approach as practised by Mahatma Gandhi and Martin Luther King.
In year 2001, he was arrested under ISA and was sent to Kamunting Detention, and according to him, he was willing arrested without any protest. He was imprisoned for 2 years, but bear in mind tat detention under ISA isn’t as bad like those Sg.buluh jail , or like those in Prison Break series. He was then keep himself busy by dabbliing his love in painting and drawing. He drew insects tat entered his cell and made over 100 Hari Raya Cards and Chinese New Year for friends n family. Apart from tat, he was leaning Thai, Norwegian , Arabic, Freach n Sanskrit which he has mostly forgotten by now. His father however took his detention in some humour, where his father at least knoe where he is now, n where to find him. Adding to tat, his father always thinks tat he is safer in detention rather than leading demontrations everywhere.
2003, he is released bac again, he was in form again. 2004 , again he was into detention for being involved in a rally-calling for police reforms and inquiry into the deaths. but tat doesn;t end long. He lost in 2004 general election in Batu. One of the biggest casualties during that time was his relationship wit his long-term gf where they remained apart when his gf was arrested and blacklisted and deported bac to HK.
Although he has been imprisoned, injured and lost his gf, there are no regrets according to him. According to him, ‘Life is wat u choose to put into it, mine is natural unfolding of choices I’ve made. I believe i am part of a bigger society and movement. We all are and we either choose to stay away or stay in it. He always consider himself lucky of wat he is doing, where he had the opportunity to study overseas, a car by his dad, and a house by his late-mother. To him, given such privileges, he is guilty if he don do wat he is doing. His motto sums up his life’s philospohy ;La vie existe grace aux choice, which means life exist because of choice- choices tat he made.
He is the man who lives averagely like most of us, but stand still of doing things in wat he believed in.
Moving on ..
Unstoppable demands, ever rising expectations as to wat a medical care shud provide, the increasing health living standard of care, together coupled with the introduction of advanced and complex treatments all conspire..it might be thought to make doctors busier, might be?No way..its DEFINITELY making our life , tougher. In fact, doctors have always been busy ppl, not all i wud say, but majority. Pls stop comparing the fictitious anecdote of doctors, private doctors charging sky high fees from patients which in reality, only a minute amount are affected. Sir James Paget for example would have to consult more than 60 patients a day sometimes travelling miles away from their bedside. Sir Dominic Corrigan was so busy 150 years ago that he has to make a secret door in his consulting room so that he cud escape from the vast queue of eager patients. Anyway, he’s the guy who came out wit Corrigan’s sign, a physician who well known for his observation in heart disease.
We are all quite familiar with the phenomenon of being hopelessly over-stretched and wanting Corrigan’s secret door. Competing, urgent, and simultaneous demands make carrying out any task all but impossible. A day in a life of a houseman- imagine when u’re trying to put an IV infusion on a shocked patient when there’s a call for u. On ur way to the phone a patient is falling out of bed, being in held in, apparently only by his visibly lengthening catheter (which had taken the house officer an hour to insert). U know u shud stop to help but, instead , u pick the phone and started to tell the sister bout this man dangling from his catheter( knowing that in ur heart the worst thing wud had already happened). But u r suddenly interuppted by a thud coming from the bed of a diabetic elderly lady who jus had her 5 inch diabetic foot lesion being dressed; however it is not her but her visiting husband who collapsed and now having seizures. At this moment ur , another call from another nurse summoning u to for a call of another incoming patient wit angst. In despair, u turn to the Sister, groaning: Hey..wat am i doing here?!There mus be a way outta here!..
At times, like this, we all need Corrigan to take us by the shadow of our hand, and walk wit us through his metaphorical secret door into a calm inner world..
Well, its jus like a cancer where there’s no cure but remedies to make our life to sail more comfortable..Here’s some of the tips tat I can share wit u guys:
First, however lonely and stress u are, u r not usually alone. Do not pride urself on not asking for help. If a decision is a hard one, share it wit a colleague or a staff nurse. I noticed nurses oftenly feel more appreciated if we ask them some questions to help ourselves. Normally, they are more willing to help. Dunno why, but Chinese doctors are majority more well welcomed by the nurses in our hospital settings. Second, take any chances u get to sit down n rest, and hav a cup of coffee wit other members and staff nurses or wit a friendly patient. It is said that patients are sources of renewal, not jus devourers of ur energies. Studying wil be the last thing u gonna do when u r working, according to one of my senior doctors in UMMC.
Third, do not miss meals. All gals pls..EAT! If there’s no time to go canteen, ensure tat food is put aside for u to eat when u can. Hard work and sleeplessness are twice as bad when u r hungry. U may tot of preparing from home jus like most of the FYs are doing when i was in Edinburgh. Fourth, avoid making work for urself. U knoe, sometimes its too easy for young housemen to be trapped in their image of excessive workload and blackmailed by misplaced guilt – so eventually, reclerking history , rechecking for results shud be avoided when priority shud be caring for urself! How can u care for ppl when u r not taking care of urself?!, my A&E consultant once told me this. In A&E, our life comes before patient adding to tat.
Finally, always rmr tat however much busy the ‘on take’ , our period of duty wil finally comes to a dot..Wise quote says Come what come may ; Time and the hour runs through the roughest day
Moment in A&E
A&E department, a place where drives any posted doctor’s adrenaline to rush profusely. Oh yes, indeed it is one of the department which demands enuf acumen from the doctor who will be posted there. Just got to knoe tat, up til last year, all this while there’s only 2 weeks of houseman posting in our hospital settings, which rest in covered at least Medical Officers. Btw, it changed to 4 months currently started last 2007, thanx much to our former health minister.
I was lucky enough to be there when one of the rare cases was brought in the RED Resuscitate room. It is an emergency. In fact, my consultant today described it as a ’scary experience’. Lucky x fortunate me = equals to lucky power 2, i was able to participate as one of the rescue team member. Of course, i was the ka le fe, but being there to help out n observe is jus more than enough for MS(tat’s how a Medical Student is called in UMMC generally, got a title one k) It is a case of sudden collapse of a G3P2 mother , full term baby. She was poorly booked earlier on, n caught all the medical personnels in dubious. Sudden collapse of a pregnant mother, and a full term baby..wat’s more terrified other than Eclampsia fits in world’s of O n G? Indeed BP was 182/120 mmHg and jumped to 212/160mmHg highest!, and frothy urine in the urine catheter bag, and frothy saliva drooling out. Though she hasn’t develope any tonic clonic seizures, but she was being managed fully with diagnosis of Eclampsia fits.
Being in A&E, such case is rare when we are looking at 2 lives at once, and there’s limited survival rate for both. Such case need extra management rather than the typical primary survey, and secondary survey which are the usual protocol in A&E settings. The consultant head had to be called down, n when he is being called, tat means no more small business. His first expression when i saw him, he was scracthing his head. Just a split second there he was yelling n managed the whole havoc in exemplery style. I wud have jus to salute each n every of the medical personnels ranging from the consultantss, MOs, nurses and even MS. Everyone was putting their whole effort into this situation. Multidisciplinary approach, yes the magical word for any emergencies in hospital. O n G specialist and paediatrician was called to the site, but they were late. Here is when u can see the pros brain-storming among each other to save these 2 lives. I cud actually see the O n G specialist fumble and lost his touch for first few minutes upon his arrival. Only then his sidekick arrived boosting up his confidence.
Eventually, we pushed her to the OT room wit 7 ppl. hehe. Such a big group tat i’ve seen to push a bed. Me too being busybody me, hastened into the OT to observe. Baby was delivered no doubt by caeserian section, resuscitated and was well perfused. Mom on the other hand was fine and under general anesthetic. All are in good shape. A&E personnels were all delighted when they were informed that both lives are saved. Me too, was happie to hear tat. Baby’s really chubby, too bad cannot cubit.
Well, at times…doctors really do miracle. Being doctors are jus not doing mistakes n mistakes like others had tot bout. This incident does really keeps my dreams going, as a life-saver.
Friday nite outing wit my mother
I went a movie wit my mother. Believe it or not? Believe it!
Was kinda exhausted after reaching home around 7 something from hospital. Well, stil its part of the plan to watch the movie we wanted-Three Kingdoms, in Midvalley along wit my siblings. I rushed for dinner n cleaned myself hoping to catch the movie at 9.30pm. Jus as i was prepared to leave the house, suddenly my mother uttered tat she wanna join us for the movie. Oooh, i paused and was remotely dubious if its a joke or if my ear heard something else. Well yes, she is joining us for the movie in Midvalley tat Friday nite. I am ok wit it and warmly welcome her, as long as she does not use up the time more longer before tickets were all sold out. Its been quite awhile since the last time we had a family gathering. It took her a little while to get herself prepared but i wud considered tat is tolerable for a lady. Only then she mentioned if wanna buy the keropok and soft drinks into the cinema. Mus be thinking the cinemas today are stil those sdn.bhd’s cineplex like those REX panggung wayang type one u knoe. No time,mom…we don eat keropok nowadays in cinema..we eat popcorns, i replied. I rushed to MV and as usual 101% sure, she gonna comment my reckless driving skill. Tat’s how KL ppl drive rite. Morover, i don think there’s anything wrong wit my driving skills for u guys tat had sat in my car before.
Reaching there, uh the queue was as long as ever. It nearly reached the McD entrance for those who knew the plan well in MV GSC cinema. Luckily i asked my brother to go for queue while i searched for parking jus now. While patiently waiting, she asked me to jump queue wor. Cannot mom, today is 21st century liao. Ppl knoe wat’s jump queue one, i said. She was quite flabbergasted at all the youngsters presence in MV,especially couples. Wat to expect, its Friday nite ma. Keep on nagging to me tat she’s the oldest one of all. Aiyah, of course i said age yes la, but face doesn look like ma.. Then came a couple in front of us while we were buying drinks. Again she commented, wa..the gal is taller than the guy oh. Wua nowdays guy and gal doesnt mind ady oh. I said no la of course. The gal was wearing high heels ma. Eventually we cudn’t get the tickets we wanted, so we adjourned to other movie err, An Empress and Her Warriors.
Entering the cinema, wua again she commented. The cinema like a lecture hall la..So small one. Of course la i say, got 17 screens here in this GSC, how to expect all like the REX type of panggung wayang. Whole movie was ok to me, overall. Got head got tail lar. To my surprise, my mom actually didn even catch a wink throughout the movie. She said movie was ok. At least she knoe who is the bad n who’s good one, the plot of the movie, and she even knoes the plateau n climax of the storyline. She knoes Lai Meng, Kelly Chen. Not bad not bad..A round applause for her. The last movie we watched together was Pearl Harbour which she enjoy sleeping sweetly throughout the movie.
So, we ended our Friday Nite outing, by bringing her to feast at the Penang Tau Foo Far stall in Sri Petaling. Haha..Overall was good. Thinking again, its the generation gap tat keep the bond alive. hehe..
Trying to be funnie..
Yesterday was my second day in UMMC(University Malaya Medical Centre). Am currently doing my selective in A&E department. I joined the group of final medical student to follow this doctor for his teaching in the department. Well, am not gonna judge or comment bout his teaching, but let’s see wat he had taught me tat day. Obviously it was my first time encountering him, so i was maybe a bit more semangat-ed. He is funny u knoe, trying to be funny which i think is a lil’ bit absurd. Before he started his teachings, at a sudden he asked us to follow him to the main entrance of the A&E. 7 of us were quite puzzled at the perplexed order. He passed me a pair of disposable glove, and another to a student. He brought us to this van which jus parked in front of the A&E entrance. We opened van door, wondering wat’s inside. Inside is a cadevar. Tat man jus died few hours ago, sudden collapse n died, before we hopped into the van n opened the black plastic bag. Uh, my first time unpack a cadevar freshly packed in the beg plastic bag like wat u see in the TV news one u knoe. He asked me n tat gal to do relevant clinical examination on him. I was really bewildered. Speechless. Relative of the dead one were jus standing steps way from the funeral van. Imagine 7 of the white coat boys n gals walking, gathering in front of the A&E main entrance to check this man with his relatives around us. Of course we proceed after their relatives’ permission. But still oh gosh..i got no comment. I checked everything wat’s necessary as fast as i cud. It was jus such a contempt act tat i cannot say no. Reason why, he mentioned to expose us to the dead..C’mon la..trying to be a funnie bunnie izit..
Poh Sen had lost his…
There’s this caption of words saying ‘take nothing but memories, and leave nothing but footprints’ each time we went for a trip or stay. Well, my elective in Edinburgh had been a real remarkable one. I shall summarise tat in my next blog. Anyway, jus minutes before i left, i tot it wud be good to leave some noteworthy experience wit friends there. Yea, kinda conscious but err..half or less of self aware resulting from the alcohol tat we were supposed to toast the nite before, but couldn’t as everyone was dog-tired after coming bac from their Prague trip. So wat’s best next time if u wanna leave something for someone precious before u leave them? Let me giv u guys a brief n yet concise tutorial of wat can be done..there’s a lesson behind tat..
Devils tat lure me into alcoholism..XD(anyone beg to differ?)
See how naive am i..and wild..
Was half aware..half high..
All of a sudden, the beast inside me re-ignited and…
Something bad…really bad happened..noisy as well XD
He can’t stand it..
Lesson of the day: Say Tak Nak to alcohol. Even Bombom cannot stand it..
Election ah?
This morning i woke up forcefully from my bed just to join one of my mom’s friend whom i’ve not met for years. Was feeling kinda weird as there’s some slight tiny adjusment to do. Tot i might be post-jetlag syndromme i guess. Felt guilty for them to wait for me for breakfast. I hurried myself and meanwhile they were having their chitchatting.
So i went down and greeted them. I had some light conversation with her before going out for makan. And so as usual, as expected as well, she said tat i grew up ady, to my mom before asking me…
Her: U got Ellreection??( It sounds so much like erection thou)
I paused a while before she asked me the second time again..
Her: Ellreection wor…Oh yea, nowadays youngmen seldom into politics
Of course i laughed at my usual composure while agreeing to her statement, but trying to compress it, is bit difficult at this point. Yea, i had it this morning, in fact every morning. XD
